Oh yeah, before I forget…

[franklanguage]

Had a resurrection dream last night; my dead roommate reappeared and said, "No, it's me; I've been here all along."

I was like, "I'm not buying that…" considering it had been over three months now. So I wasn't overly disappointed to wake up and be proven right, but I've been depressed for quite a while now thinking this is the future.

His memorial had been the other day—Sunday—and as I had planned, I didn't go. I had promised his girlfriend I wouldn't be there so she could share with abandon. There was no video or audio taken, and I don't care. I can surmise what she talked about, and fuck it. I don't care.

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[misstia]

I know, understand, and respect, people have different beliefs. Despite being an atheist, I do believe there are other planes of existence. So to me, reading that, I believe it was him telling you he's there. Call it hokey, mumbo jumbo, I've experienced too much myself to have many doubts. Such things often happen in a dream state, or half awake state, when your mind is more open.

Regardless, I hope you can take some small measure of comfort from that. Doesn't seem he attended the memorial either! You can memorialize him as you wish, every day, or in acts of kindness in his memory, etc.

I'm sorry you're still depressed; but it's natural that you would be still unfortunately. The upcoming holiday season and the dreary weather will not help much. I know you know this, but please take care of yourself!!

[blozor.livejournal.com]

Sometimes the brain uses dreams to show us realities we wish to be true. I think it's a way for the brain to try to make us happy by giving us some sense of gratification we can't find in real life. Then we wake to face reality and it often just makes us sadder to be shown what cannot be. I feel for you.

[franklanguage.livejournal.com]

I've had tons of wish-fulfillment dreams; when I was comatose and connected to machines, I often dreamed of walking. Of course at that time, even waking reality looked like a dream, compounded by my legally-blind nearsightedness. (Naturally, there was no reason for the nurses to put glasses on me, since they had no idea whether I was awake or aware.)